Half way through January

It's official! Hell Month is almost over!! I've been snacking like I don't even believe! I never snack. I am so not a snacker but the last couple weeks at work, it's eat or yell and eating won't get me fired. Things are getting better though and I'm actually looking forward to February and changing my diet and exercise habits into good ones because honestly, I'm not even having fun eating whatever I want.

Oh and I've picked up a wicked addiction to dark chocolate bars. Dear cashiers at Trader Joe's: please do not let me out of the store with more of your chocolate bars!!

I'm off to MD this weekend for "nephew" Cole's 2nd birthday and to meet his little brother Aidan who was born six months ago and who I *still* haven't gotten to squeeze. And I'm also looking forward to seeing my best friend and her fabulous hubby and of course Crystal and Belle and Amy and Brileigh. I'm so lucky to have been absorbed into the Wilson/Bass family!! Hey, you impose on people for 20+ years and they have to let you in ;-)

Hope to have more interesting news to share sometime soon

The first day of the rest of... well the year

Happy New Year! I had abandoned this blog for a couple of months for a couple of reasons but I have decided to give it another try after some encouragement from very supportive friends.

So my extreme dieting turned out to be too tough... it felt like I was a social pariah. I couldn't go anywhere, I couldn't do anything because I couldn't eat or drink. The new challenge for 2010: balance. I need to get healthy but I also need to maintain a balance in my life and my friends and my family, work, food, exercise; these are all things that I need to prioritize and figure out a way to make work.

This month is going to be a challenge for me because while it is a new year and I want so much to get on the resolution band wagon, it is the most terrible, stressful work time of the whole year. I'm working about 50 hours a week and feel brain dead and drained of energy when I get home every night. I don't want to cook and I certainly do not want to exercise; all I want to do is lay on the couch and turn off my brain. While it's not even close to easy, I am to really make an effort to limit the fast food this month which really becomes such an easy dining option when you are so fried every day. I think that will help me feel like I'm not a total lost cause to nutrition. My YMCA membership expires at the end of the month and I think that instead of renewing it that I might join Gold's because it's a lot closer- as well as cheaper. I really like the environment of the Y though- the gym scares me because I have this preconceived notion that it's full of meat heads, skinny girls with big fake boobs and the most judgmental people that society will tolerate. I've seriously got to get over this strong dislike of the gym. I'm going to work on it...

In the next month, it's all about baby steps but if anyone is bored in the evening and wants to maybe join me for a walk, I could go for that...

Thanks again to everyone who has been so supportive of me. I like writing this blog; it's strange how in the journaling process you can see patterns in your thoughts and behavior and really learn about yourself. Maybe that's why shrinks recommend it!

Barry and Andi, thank you so much for your support! The blog is back- and everyone has you two to blame! ;-) Much love to you both!!!

Happy New Year to all!!